chemveil | IC Spam

24 HOURS AFTER THIS.

Can I be done fucking off now?

Drunk from this.

I guesssssss. But you have to apologize for being stupid.

[…] I wouldn’t say it’s stupid to feel responsible for maintaining functionality in the brains of those I’m responsible for.

Nooo stupid it's not that part.

I mean it's sort of kind of that part.

It's the part where you're like "oh well if they volunteer I guess I have to because something something I'm a dumbass that can't figure out alternative options like banning my squad from volunteering."

~~Are y~~ If that had been an option, I would have. […] The way it was being discussed by leadership, it was clear that it wouldn’t have been allowed. Something about having to let people choose to be stupid if they want to be.

Edited 2026-02-04 16:22 (UTC)

Bro who is gonna stop you you just like, make them run drills forever if they try to volunteer or tell them your squad is extra special because it's populated with babies idk.

I like seriously for real cannot have someone else with a scrambled brain.

Okay. […] I’ll figure something out.

Ok and the something else is not secretly brain scrambling y/n? Because I will extra scramble your brain. With murder.

I’m starting to think you’d miss me too much to go through with the murder, actually.

You underestimate how vindictive I am.

The punishment for being sad that I’m hurt certainly makes sense to be my execution.

Not SAD. Inconvenienced.

Tell me more about how it would inconvenience you.

Oh my god, because my friends are limited. I can't bully the higher ups or I get banned from research data. Your ego is so super dumb.

In other words, you would miss me. […] Surely someone can get you access, even if Aldana is pissed at you.

Oh I'm ~~incorah~~ ~~incorrgabel~~ incorrigible, I have my sources and Adri will lose his shit but whatever.

We're friends dumbass of course I'd miss you. There's a fuckin shriveled up heart in there somewhere.

Well, you’re Maryle. You can’t be stopped. For better or worse.

Please. It’s not shriveled, just well hidden.

Always for worse.

Shriveled. Desiccated. Withered. Very nearly wizened.

Almost always.

Lying is one of your best defenses.

Please tell Adri this I'm sure he'll be thrilled to know.

It also makes me charming as hell.

Wait did you say sorry yet.

I would have made things worse if I’d tried to talk to him. You’re welcome for not.

I don’t know if I can attest to that.

I thought maybe you’d forget about that part.

He was in a MOOD.

Ok please do a survey of the ship and everyone will say my straightforward honesty is a very lovely trait.

Mind like a steel trap, bitch.

I think just about everyone was in a mood.

I think they’d say whatever you wanted them to say, but are we saying straightforward honesty is what you’re known for…?

I’m sorry I scared you by saying there was a possibility that you might not have me around in peak condition anymore.

I was losing it.

What do you think they'd say without the threat of me?

Your brain is already half empty, you'd be such a bummer even more busted up ok?

If you think I couldn’t tell… Most people were, though.

They’d say that you’re charming, beautiful, and absolutely ridiculous.

Uh-huh.

I think I was pretty much on full display yesterday. I was having a few bad days.

Sounds right.

Yep!!!

I don’t think anyone can hold it against you if you still weren’t feeling well.

They might also say you’re emotionally avoidant and that you like pulling pigtails.

Well I'm all better now. I'm drunk.

That's only because they're dumb babies.

I can tell. That’s one way to knock out a cold, I suppose.

M I don’t think anyone has any complaints about it.

~~Well I~~ It poisons the germs like it poisons your body. Like how a fever nukes germs and also you.

Oh they do and I am sure they will let me know but I don't care. I'm an adult.

Sure it does. Who has the pleasure of keeping you company?

[…] Sorry, what part are we saying they’ll be complaining about?

Dom. We're on the floor.

Emotionally avoidant and pigtail pulling duh. No one complains about charming unless they're jealous.

Because you can’t stand up anymore. Presumably.

I doubt anyone is complaining about you pulling their pigtails in earnest.

We're sleepy and the table was boring.

Hmmmmm I guess. That also falls under charming if you squint.

Should I be concerned that you’re drunk in the middle of the day, by the way?

I’d argue it’s a large part of your charm.

No this is a good day drunk. I'm healed. Also this is really nice tequila.

Yeah people like mean women apparently.

I’m jealous.

I can’t pretend that I don’t get it.

You can go to my room and ask Sloane to get you some of my mystery bottle if you want.

I think you all have a hint or more of masochism.

First of all, I have things to do today. Secondly, I have no interest in drinking terrible liquor alone.

Lucky for you, if we’re honest.

[.....] Oh fuck I have things to do today too. Guess I'm calling in sick.

Actually yeah, I'd have no friends.

Try not to slur too much as you tell them you’re sick.

You would have to learn how to be nice to people.

Oh I'm going to make Dom call in for me.

Disgusting. It'd be like Veiled Maryle.

Can he manage it without slurring his words? He’s been drinking with a fish.

It’s hard to imagine you as Veiled Maryle.

He's a spy and is sooooo good at lying it's kind of fucked up.

She was nice and smart friendly and a hard worker. ~~Sometimes I miss~~

I’ll have to remember not to trust anything he says.

Like you, but if you were boring.

Yeah he's constantly full of shit.

[.....]

No, not really like me. [...] But SO boring.

I know. Not really like you, that is. […] Veiled Nishad has very little in common with me, but there is commonality there.

I guess. [...] ~~She~~

I bet you were such a loser nerd.

You guess?

I […] was just a background character, really.

Yeah.

Everyone was, I wouldn't take it too hard Mr. Main Character.

You’re welcome to say more. If the mood strikes.

Yeah. I just meant […] I don’t know what I meant. Nevermind.

No you know what you meant. Spill.

[…] There may have been commonalities, but I would have been unrecognizable to anyone who knew me. That’s all.

I just treat Veiled Maryle as a different person.

Are you sad?

Edited (Sorry lol) 2026-02-05 01:39 (UTC)

She was and she wasn't, though. You still lived her life.

About?

Eh. Easier if she's just another person.

Whatever you're not telling me.

[...] Does it feel true?

I am, but it's just hard to figure out how to put it into words. It's usually easiest not to think about how things were. B

Yeah, pretty much.

Just say whatever comes to mind first. Sometimes that helps.

[...] You can't hold anything I say against me later.

I would never.

Edited (Not 100% true but) 2026-02-05 04:28 (UTC)

Are we pretending I don't know you, Maryle?

Maybe I won't remember because I'm drunk and kinda honestly falling asleep because you're being boring not telling me anything.

[…] You can sleep, then.

God you're the worst.

AND you never apologized.

Funny, I thought I did.

Say sorry please

I’m sorry I worried you, Maryle.

Thx

Edited (Worst) 2026-02-05 18:32 (UTC)

[…] My I’ve had to agree to celebrate Az’s kill count with him to finally have reprieve from him throwing the phrase Pilot King around.

Be sure to suck up a lot to get him to shut up longer. I'm not even a pilot and it's gotten olllllldddddd

I’ll suck up to him for you if you give me three compliments. Otherwise, I’m not sure it’s worth it.

Oh, do not suck up for me. I don't want to give him ideas.

He’s too busy striking out with Griffin to have other ideas.

Lollllllllll everything is soooooo messy here.

It is, but you would be bored if it weren’t.

Yeah I like keeping my little chart. Captive animal enrichment.

Does anyone get chart immunity?

Dom.

What does the chart say about me?

Classified.

Edited (Stuff about his ex) 2026-02-05 21:28 (UTC)

Tell me.

I'm going to bed byeeee

[…] Don’t think I won’t ask again later. Sweet dreams, Maryle.

I'm cleaning house and located a few items that were missed when I promised that I would tell you everything. I'm here to set matters straight in the name of friendship, honesty, and you not killing me in my sleep. I will only discuss one of these topics at a time.

Recent lies of omission in chronological order:

I withheld ROM chocolate bars from you.

I've been [...] tentatively cleared for the field. A recon mission only, and with a Medical handler. Yes, I'm afraid and no, I'm not worried.

I slept with Nikola the night before we reconciled.

The Mess gave us each an extra brownie when I retrieved dinner, which I ate on my way back to you.

I believe my midlife crisis is having developed a sweet tooth.

Edited (this is so stupid) 2026-02-05 20:56 (UTC)

[...]

Man, are we going to have to have weekly reports?

I guess my lie of omission is that I slammed another gulp of tequila after you fell asleep.

Who's your Medical handler?

We may have to. And thank you for not polishing off the entire bottle, you thief.

A nurse named Nadine Weber who is, according to Singh, non-negotiable.

Edited 2026-02-05 21:30 (UTC)

It's because I love and respect you. I was going to say we should save the rest for the next time we fight, but let's not do that again. I'll just steal more slowly over time.

Ok, good. [...] I'll [...] try not to ~~freak out~~ stress.

What changed your mind about Niko? Has he extricated himself enough from the old man mess shape?

I'm investing the entirety fake stratosphere resistance salary into purchasing a safe and you will not have the combination.

I doubt they'll allow me to disembark if I'm experiencing an off-week.

[...] Hardly, but I had a moment of weakness when it became even more complicated, temporarily, and he understood that I'm not [...] keen to form a habit.

If the combination isn't my birthday that's really offensive, though.

No, you're right. [...] I'll still worry, but I guess the normal amount. Have you had an off week since you've been here?

Sticking to quarterly lays? I hope it was helpful.

That's fine.

Not a full week but days, yes.

As do I.

Well I'm going to get a safe and put the carton of cigarettes I have in it.

Is it getting any better? [...] Maybe too soon to tell.

I'll keep an eye on him and see if he seems to be uplifted from your magical loins.

Also sweets midlife crisis does not excuse all these dessert withholdings?? What the fuck.

Maryle. I cannot handle four conversations at once while also wrestling a hangover. Since when do you own an entire carton.

I know, I ignored your instructions. I feel great.

I don't yet.

Edited (Lies) 2026-02-06 00:22 (UTC)

So you lied.

And immediately told you during our confession time. I'm absolved.

I stopped attending Mass for good reason and yet here I am, in a conversation with eerily similar undertones...

Edited 2026-02-06 00:56 (UTC)

Unsurprisingly, I've never set foot in a church.

Tell me all your sins and I'll give you a Hail Mary or whatever.

You would set it alight. And no thank you, I need those from my last 24 hours to keep me warm on cold winter nights in space.

Flattered that you think it would combust as opposed to the other way around.

Let's circle back to your dessert sins, though.

You're invincible.

The brownie was my fee for playing courier. I hold neither shame nor regret in my heart.

I really am impressive, huh?

You didn't deserve a fee, but even if you did, it doesn't explain my current lack of chocolate bars.

Edited 2026-02-06 06:51 (UTC)

In a fearsome sort of way.

They're rum-flavoured.

You like having a challenge around.

Are you torturing me or just trying to add to my excitement?

My response to both your statement and your inquiry is: Yes.

I hate you. Bring me chocolate.

I love you and I happen to be indisposed.

I'm coming over.

What if I'm relieving stress? Or worse, what if I'm not there at all?

You feel like shit because you're hungover, I bet you're laying in bed feeling sorry for yourself.

I'll have you know I am both out and about and, yes, feeling sorry for myself.

Edited 2026-02-06 16:39 (UTC)

I guess there are maybe things you need to get done.

I'll leave you to your patheticness.

I may or may not leave something in your top left desk drawer after lunch. If this occurs, kindly remember how precious such luxuries are in space and try to savour it.

Love you very very much. I shoved a handful of ibuprofen into your glasses case last night.

[...] Please do not ever leave me.

♥ You're trapped with me forever.

I've never been so grateful to be the victim of an unbreakable curse.

Dear diary,

[...] I may have flown too close to the sun, so to speak. [...] Romantically. [...] While there are plenty of better ways to phrase this without the use of tired idioms, unfortunately all cylinders are dedicated to Kamchatka even though (— If I'm honest. May I be honest? I'll be honest: —) I may prefer to expend them on [...] this. Right now. As I can't decide how to proceed and I'd very much like to.

Such is life.

From Russia (shortly) with love (forever),
Domingo

P.S. Don't tell Maryle.

Edited (the last thing he sends before leaving for russia ✌️ byeeee) 2026-02-18 21:24 (UTC)

Have you figured out the best way to be like "hey, so, I know you haven't seen your family member in a long time, but surprise, they're actually an undercover agent and they'll be on board the Mnemo soon!" yet?

I might just kill us both. Seems easier.

Not for me. "I'm here to collect you. Why am I so depressed? Well, this woman I'm quite fond of just took herself and your brother out via airlock. Was that not the update you wanted on your way to the stronghold...?"

Edited 2026-02-20 04:07 (UTC)

You won't have to say airlock, I'm more creative than that.

[...]

I'm just going to sit him down and tell him.I don't think there's really any other way to do it, outside of murder-suicide or being insanely drunk. Or if you can somehow get me weed before tomorrow.

I thought you might be, but I didn't think I'd live up to your creativity when it comes to murder anyway, so I settled for airlock.

I'm not really in the know for who has weed on board, unfortunately. [...] There's another thing that I want to tell you, but I think it's more that selfishly I want to talk to you about it, rather than I'm certain that I should. It's not about Dom.

Borrrrrring.

What use are you then? I guess I need to do it the hard way.

[...]

What is it?

I have plenty of uses, just fewer that you'll take me up on.

Dom's not the only one with incoming undercover agent family.

I know I could kill you to get out all my rage, but then what would I be left with?

[.....]

What? Who? You?

Be realistic. You would miss me too much.

No. ~~I w~~ [...] Sloane's father. I'm telling her when they get back.

Sloane's dad?

Yeah. [...] Try not to let on you know before she tells you?

Yeah, I'm really good at lying. But what the fuck.

Yeah, I know. [...] I don't know her well enough yet to know how she'll take it.

She'll probably shut down for a while, but then I can probably get her to talk about it. [.....] We talk about stuff sometimes.

[...] She talks or you talk?

[.........] Her, mostly. ~~Sometimes me~~ I don't have much to talk about.

I think there's a difference between not having much to talk about and not being willing to talk about it.

Regardless, we all know how forthcoming I am.

[...]

Just be direct with her. And don't take it personally if she does or says anything. Or doesn't do or say anything.

An open book, really.

I won't take it personally. I'm not that sensitive.

And I always tell the truth.

I was trying to be reassuring.

Without fail.

Ah. Let me reread it. [...] I won't. It's not about me, anyway.

See, this is why I'm never nice to you. Gets all misconstrued.

Too many things have been happening.

If you were nicer to me more often, I wouldn't be as well trained to not read nice intentions behind your words. I'd pick up on it easier.

Far too many things. Not all of them bad, at least.

I will not be doing that.

Not all bad, but I don't think I was built for this much stuff.

Let me dream, Maryle.

Yeah?

We need to get you some better dreams there, sport.

~~Do you ever miss~~ [...] It's just a lot of work. Which is, of course, my enemy.

How do you think you're going to tell Sloane?

I like the dreams I have.

I think you handle it pretty well. Not without complaint, but.

Someone smarter than me suggested that I simply be direct with her. So. That, probably.

Do you have some more achievable ones?

Don't really have a choice.

Let's hope that person is right, otherwise there are going to be four people suffering for it.

[...] Honestly, no. I have a very long list of things I want, but can't have.

What would you be doing if you did have a choice?

Four?

Guess that's why they're dreams or something.

Not dealing with all this shit all the time.

Dom, me, Sloane, you. I guess maybe some other people as collateral damage. Hell, could be the whole ship.

Are yours achievable?

[...] Is there anything I can do? ~~I know you d~~

Let's hope there's no collateral damage at all.

[...] I don't know if I have dreams so much as I have a certain way I want various things to happen. They're achievable.

No. I'm fine.

If this goes even close to smooth I'm going to be proud of myself for five whole minutes.

Various things?

Sometimes you're not actually that good at lying.

Ten, at least.

Yeah, you know, events and happenings.

How do you know I'm not fine?

Maybe. Five for each adequate 'your dead family member is not, in fact, dead' conversation.

Edited (she is a constant problem I'm sorry) 2026-02-20 06:35 (UTC)

What kind of events and happenings are you hoping for...?

It's Dom's first mission on the ground since he got benched, is it not? That's enough to set you on edge alone. When he's back, you're responsible for explaining to him that his sister isn't veiled or, based on what you've just said, dead perhaps, just ~~in Arg~~ [...] undercover and currently compromised. [...] You're also clearly feeling overwhelmed by everything that's happening, whether it's about those two things or if you're feeling down about the general state of the world which begins with 'end of' or 'post-apocalyptic.' All of that is understandable, but none of it lends itself to the description of 'fine.'

Classified.

[........]

~~That's~~ ~~Look, fuck y~~ [...] ~~I don't~~ It's fine

It's not anything I'm not going to get over, or get through, or whatever. What's the point in even acknowledging it?

Edited (guess who can't 🔪 sleep 🔪) 2026-02-20 08:42 (UTC)

[…] Is it that impossible to imagine a world in which you admit it and I’m able to help you feel at least a little better about it? […] I’m not going to pretend like I can fix your problems, and I know you can get through anything that comes up, but I do think talking things through, or asking for a distraction, or, for those of us who like that sort of thing, a hug, can all help immensely when I’m upset about something.

~~You can't just~~ [....] You and I are very different people. That's just not how I handle things.

I know. […] But it might be worth trying my way sometime.

I'm not like, having a mental breakdown. I don't think drastic measures are necessary.

This may come as a surprise, but I actually don’t think you should wait until you’re having a mental breakdown to allow […] yourself to be cared for.

I am cared for. You're going to get me tequila.

Yeah, okay. But I’ve got more to offer than tequila if you ever feel like taking me up on it.

Edited (embarrassing af) 2026-02-20 22:24 (UTC)

So you keep saying, and so I keep rejecting. Tequila will solve all my problems. So thank you for that.

[…] Alright. I’ll stop.

And I'll say thank you again.

[...]

It's good to know about Sloane, too.

Edited (worst girl in the world) 2026-02-20 22:29 (UTC)

Yeah. Well. I have the opposite problem of you.

You do. ~~Really, it's stupid of you to~~ Sucks.

I wouldn’t say it sucks.

How does spilling your guts all the time not suck?

I only do it with the people I trust.

~~Well you~~ Can I make a self-deprecating joke or are you going to be earnest about it?

It’s 50/50.

Cool. Talk to you later bud~

Chicken.

That's me.

I’ll refrain from being earnest.

You're so easy, you know that?

If I were as difficult as you, I’d never get anywhere talking to you.

That's probably true. Thanks for your sacrifice.

Anyways, I was going to say you need to pick better people to trust.

Ah. It's too late for that now. I already made a deal with the devil.

Ok, appropriate response. Well done.

You would have hated the first three attempts.

[after this]

Paging Dr. Bone.

Did that stupid

Dr. Bone, reporting for duty.

Company: Yes or No?

You should be enjoying dancing.

Nearly every one of my dances has been off. I can't even gloat. What happened, mi vida?

So we're both failures, just as the universe intended. You can still enjoy being questionably skilled at dancing, though.

[...]

I don't know. I'm just on edge.

Describe it for me.

~~Like~~

Dom, you don't have to worry about me. I'm just going to have a drink and then I'll be back.

What if I said "Please describe it for me?" Will the manners change anything?

Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

~~But~~ ~~I feel insane~~ ~~My feelings are all~~ ~~You have your own things to~~ ~~Are you sure you don't want to just go back to~~ ~~Shall we talk about your diary~~

Fuck. Fine.

Touch is extra bad today, maybe because I'm worried about you ~~and Sloane~~, or because I'm fucked up and it's just a bad day for it, I don't know, who even cares. And Nishad is so pathetic with his crush that I feel bad for him, so I thought fine, I'll be a little generous and suck up the discomfort. But then he's too nice and it makes me feel pathetic and like I want to rip off my skin. ~~I just want everything to feel normal and it doesn't.~~

I just needed to get out of there for a minute.

I'll inform Nishad he should treat you worse. Would you like me to send a search party if you haven't returned in twenty minutes?

Thanks. Don't tell him I said he's pathetic because then you'll have to explain that I know his stupid secret.

[...]

Will you come have a drink with me? Just one. Then I'll come back with you.

I'd never tell a man he's pathetic to his face unless I was trying to sleep with him.

Of course. But if it's your Mystery Juice I'll leave again.

Same.

I have whiskey.

[...]

I'm sorry, Dom.

[...] You haven't done anything to me.

I'm ~~being a problem~~ keeping you from dancing.

Lack of a formal outlet's never stopped me before.

Very true.

[...]

~~Sorr~~ Thanks.

I'll do anything for you.

Edited (he knows she'll hate this) 2026-02-22 23:27 (UTC)

Not if I kill you first.

Rescind the threat and I'll allow you three pointed mockeries of my diary entry while we drink. I'm offering now so you have time to prepare.

[...] I love you with my entire shriveled heart and would never kill you.

Thank you, I'll be framing that shortly.

I'll sign it.

~~Thank you. I missed you.~~

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